Obviously, the more complicated life gets, the less I write, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Lately I’ve been very overwhelmed. Not with the usual busyness of life, that is constant; nor am I overwhelmed with the speed of life, which is both relentless and consistent. No, I’m overwhelmed with God’s never-ending mercy. HE, has seen fit to answer some pretty huge prayers in my life and to say that I feel inadequate is being kind. I feel unworthy, humbled, undeserving and extremely grateful.
Travel back in time with me to 2006… I became a believer in January of that year, it was around the Fall of that year that I did a study on generational sin. The study was eye-opening and scary. Scary, because I could literally pin-point a specific sinful behavior that was a common thread in the generations preceding my children. I remember praying that God allow me (my generation) to be the last that would suffer through this, that HE would do whatever in my generation to not allow the patterns to continue into the next one. I remember begging God for the salvation of my children, their children and for all future generations to not have to suffer the same fate, and that they’d all belong to HIM.
So many things have changed since then. So. Many. But God has remained steadfast and loyal and consistent. HE has charted the course of my life and subsequently my children’s lives. In the 13 years I’ve been walking with HIM, HE has seen me through some pretty treacherous storms. To be very clear… there were storms, there are storms and there will be storms… that’s life in a fallen world. However, in HIM I’ve found peace and resilience, I’ve seen and experienced restoration (even if I didn’t recognize it at first) and I’ve lived dependent on the provision of a Heavenly FATHER that knows my needs. I can look back on these 13 years and see HIS hand in everything… and that… is overwhelming.
So… in the midst of the busyness and ferocious pace of life I take a moment to type: First, that I will have the privilege and honor of seeing my first born choose to be baptized in front of her own church family soon. Just typing that… is overwhelming. She has begun her walk with the Lord. I thank God for HIS faithfulness. Secondly, I believe my husband has found us a church home. A place that is biblical, that is faithful, and that is so much more than I thought we could find. I thank God for HIS provision. Lastly, I thank God for the pruning. It hurts like CA-RAZY but it’s so necessary for strong growth.
People… life kicks my butt at times… a lot of times. But GOD. HE really is able to do exceedingly, abundantly more than I could ever ask or even think of.